oh hell-o!

weh perempuan, sumpah doe menyirap anjing dengan kau. HAHAH terasa? bagus lah :D

oh ya, it's not too late for me to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA aite?

HELLO people :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA && MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

please forgive all my wrongdoings, xoxo LOVE YOU <3

i'm not okay

Suddenly, I dont know why?
Why? oh Why?
WHY?

I've observed that life is getting harder day by day.
I'd figure peoples life, i saw the happiness on them but
who the hell know what was the inside? their feeling?
What do they feel? All my friends kept saying that
im like the happiest girl in the world, for like never
being moody nor depressed or whatsoever,
but who the hell knows whats was inside my heart?
sister? She's great. Even how hard im trying to hide
from her she'll know everything. But as a lil sister and
as a friends i dont wanna burden any one of my beloved .
But im still human rite? When i did cried or told them
something, so that means i really need their support.
By this time, as long as i can hide , i will hide it.
Sometimes i love to see people around me who i think
has a great life, they got what they want , they achive what
they dreams on, they love people who they really love.
I just wonder why cant i be in that way?
Maybe luck was not with me yet, but then i did feel ahh forget it.
I feel so down and so depressed, Why? I dont wanna have this
feeling and i hate it. I must try my hard to throw it away.
Its okay, Allah is always there for me anyway? hurm,
There was nowhere to hide, i Think.
Ignorance? is so my new bestfriend.
Pleasee ALLAH help me,

rollercoaster

Hey Izzati :)


Hurm, Lifes? is just like a rollercoaster, wehee~
We have our ups and downs and same goes to our
thought and feelings. Smiles? What do the smiles says?
It gives a thousand meaning to us, lets just figure it out ?
People will smile even they're depressed or broken?
People will smile even they have a lot of problem in their mind?
People will also smile even they dont like the people who
they smile with? How amazing a smile can be? Typical.
But I think a smile can twist to be like such a torn to our
heart . Because sometimes it might hurts more to smile
in front of everyone, then to cry all alone. Well, im just a
typical teenager who can be angry, insecure & confused.
Hiding from a real pain was so my biggest achievement.
Nobody's perfect tho. So, smilee people smileeeeee :)

byebye,

i'm back, finally! haha hey blogger, how are you?

so once again, its almost the end of my life and here i am, updating.

i know you've been coming around and waiting till i update, and i am deeply sorry that you had to wait.

so i've noticed HOW FUCKING DEAD MY BLOG IS.

but i still do check my cbox, so please do come and visit just to paster me to keep blogging, thank you :) idk why but i somehow get the blogging mojo in the middle of the night or earllyyy i the morning. like i suddenly wake up and while i was rolling on the bed, i had the sudden urge to blog. weird much? haha that's me! yeah i'm not goin to school today. kenapa tak pergi sekolah? "sakit perut la mak, tak larat nak jalan nih lepastu buat muka =,= haha" fine, at last lepas jugak. dee is waiting for me. i asked her to cut school today and she said that she had choir's practise so i was likee "ohmygod, sedap ke suara kau?" hahaha lek dee, aku gurau je. and yeah suddenly she asked me if i'm goin to school or not and i said "noooo, aku sakit perut, konon*" haha so now tengah menunggu abang yang dicintai tu keluar dari rumah so that this dee can enter my house :)

btw, do you know how much i love you mahir? im so sorry for everything. i'm afraid of losing you for second time.

I Love Them, i can't live without them. SERIOUSLY!

byebye,

imnotthatbrokenheartedgirlanymore.

Two Kinds

There are two kinds of people in this world. The kind who listens, and the kind who talks.

Which one are you?
Are you more of a listener, or are you more of a talker? Would you rather sit there listening to someone's problems, or be the person to share your problems with someone else? are you the kind of person who would be interested in what someone's grandmother made them for Hari Raya Aidilfitri last year, or the kind who enjoys sharing about what you did at the mall today? Because really, its so hard to find listeners nowadays.

People who actually understand and listen to what you say. And today, I realized, that Mahir is a REALLY good listener :) Anyway, today was fun, good company, great company in fact. really awesome bunch of people :D fantastic food, choir's practise and cheerleading's practise. lets do it again, and the next week, Sri Utama's 2nd term exam is on Monday 29 Jun. i planned to fail. okay? :) fuck off! HAHA!


xoxo, i love my boyfriend :) -izz

scenes from my life everyday

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down, probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than onceand it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.


So take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt, because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Many thoughts endlessly pondering in my mind likewise, my emotions have been changing endlessly the whole day. Having to think about exams and at the same time whatever that's bothering me or what had happened bothered me or even how im feeling right now. Such a burden huhh =.=

xoxo, i love my beautiful friends :) -izz

Blasts From The Past

INFERNO

move shake drop!

Yes. So, I know I have disappeared for awhile. To those who still come by here to see if there's any updates, sorry. and thank you :) I am not dead. I'm just tired with cheerleading's practise and school's choir now and have limited time to online.

it’s been one of those months where i have been building up a deluge of thoughts and ideas in my head, but remain far too much of a perfectionist to pen them down. mostly i’m just waiting for the right, quiet moment to sit down and organize all of my mental hodgepodge so that i may communicate them clearly — but i should know by now these moments always take too long to come. i miss my old friends, i do and i really need you guys back.


xoxo i love my baby, mahirrrrr <3>

hello world :)

meet my beautiful khaleeda bustaman :)

from left : eylia, me, jenny and layla :)

I think i'm still trying to find myself & I think I have quite an attitude problemI seriously need to fix it, sigh. Is this a growing up process that we have to all go through? finding ourselves. Because I'm still not comfortable being in my own skin & I still love myself not enough. I feel bad for every single thing I can feel bad at. Why?

why why why

WHY I'm really counfused this week, confused at my own thoughts.

CONFUSED NYA =.=

sick for almost everyday

Can someone tell me why whenever things are
really good ,
things get really bad,
really quickly?

I hate it .

sweet sixteen faghaaaaaa :)

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday!
i love you bestfriend :)
enjoy ur sweet sixteen, 1st Jun '09

xoxo, izz <3

bosan punya pasal =.=

What's one thing you do when you're mad?About what?

Ever been called a bitch?

I'm not a bitch

Do you like where you live?

No

How's your ex?

PALING KISAH =.=

How often do you lose your voice?

Always

How many kids do you want?

herm 2 or 3 only.

How's your sister?

shes in India, i miss her.

Does anyone like you?

idk and i dont even care

Are you a good babysitter?

No, and never

Do you have a job?

bodoh punya soalan, aku student lagi la weh.

Who was the last person to make you smile?

Ahmad Mahir :)

Are you LEGALLY able to drive?

No

Do you have any plans for the weekend?

herm i dont think so.

Who is your favorite person to have long conversations with?

Faghaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Will you be in a relationship next month?

Yess :)

Are you any good at math?

Not that good actually but i love math

Do you have a reason to smile right now?

Yes :)

What was the first thing you thought this morning?

Nothing, missing someone.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?

I dont think so.

Your enemy is at your doorstep begging for forgiveness, what would you do?

Oh, semua orang patut dimaafkan but NOT YOU, BLAH! HAHA

Last time you felt bad about something?

last two days.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

i dont know =.=

Do you miss your past?

No, HAHA

Do you ever think "what if"?

Always

Are you happy with the way things are going?

nahhh

Would you ever get a tattoo?

Never

Do you mind sleeping on the floor?

Siapa suka sleeping on the floor, daaa!

Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

yes, my fucking asshole brother.

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?

i hope so, *muka gatal*

Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?

Yupp

This time last year, what was your love life like?

Heh

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone?

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?

Yessss,

Where is the person you miss the most right now?

Pavi lah kot, herm

Video BAIK PUNYA!

meet my iqmal, fauzan and shane <3 i love you guys weh!

Happy Teacher's Day!

To post more entries regarding on my feelings and all that tiny winy silly lil thing that i used to post several months ago coz im a human with loads of emotions and love to express each one of my expressions in diff kind of way every time and that makes me a special person from any other heterosexual homosepian living in this planet but i somehow have to wait until both leagues are over and i deem, i got ample of time to blog about almost everything but preferably MORE about ME rather than anything else. HAHA izz cayunk kamo *eiuwww rempit bhai* LOL!

Fuhh. I typed in one breathe.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! eventhough kida nana azureen amelia and amira tak datang, aku still boleh HIDUP! yeah im proud of it :)

meet my fett :)

meet my emil and redza annoying :) HAHA

budak budak primary yang tak reti duduk diam. urghh

LOL, redza again =,=

meet my beautiful friends, nureen farahin and yasmin :)

meet my shafira :)

meet my beautiful TASHA :) i love you <3

xoxo darling :) love you mahir *tetbe*

Sri Utama's Trip

cilok pictures ni from ivan's blog. sorry ivann. HAHA!
Educational Trip
Beryl's Chocolate Factory

oh money, oh daddy!

haha, izz dah gila. i really wanna go there. "Keimyung University In Korea". WOWWW! please daddy pleaseeeee :)









As the time flies so fast, i'd realise that we need to start thinking smart. Be smart in every move we take, especially when it comes to money. money, money, oh money. Money plays an important role in our lives. People say, Money can buy anything in life, and that includes love and i must say, part of me do agree with it.

Everything circulating within our daily lives need cash.

When you eat (food),
when you drink (teh o' ice),
when you take your bath (sabun palmolive),
and even when you shit (tandas awam serbaguna).
As i was saying, everything in life needs money :) malaysia malaysia! haiyaa.

i love you mahir

I only feel like posting the pictures today,
So pictures below :D

hello loser :)

Bitch no.1 is seriously TOO OVERR LAH
She is such a busybody
and she has one stupid mouth
which talk nonsense which actually hurts people's feelings

&& This is what I found recently about her
I mean I don't believe it when I heard bout it
Cause it was told by my enemy
So that's why I don't believe
But now I think I'm 100% believing it
This bitch loves breaking people's friendship
She loves to make your relationship worse
&& Finally break it!
HA! Even if people didn't tell me that
I already realised it earlier on
Just not really sure only :)
That's why I didn't wanna say about it first

Please lahh weh!
I'm begging you
Please get a life of yours
Stop being oh-so-mature and giving advices to people
You're not that perfect and great anyway
and I think you're the most childish person I've ever seen
But acting so mature
&& Stop spying on me OKAY?
Asking where I'm going always and who I'm going with
Hello! Like i said it's my choice
So shut your blardy mouth
Before I shut them up for you
You better stop doing this
Or else it's end of our friendship

I'd rather live without you
Than to get threaten by you every single day :)


PS// Seriously, I need my own life
Don't control my life for me please, :D

boring post

At a certain age, u will realize that myspace is lamee-ass.
facebook will be the best connection between u and ur friends or maybe olldd friends.
Though i haven't understand how to use that fuckingbook.
but someday it would be my main things-to-do everyday. that is,
to check my facebook account. hee :D

my school day wasn't so bad.
can say nicee. i love going to school now. HAHA!

update more later. lazyyyyy :D

1 2 3 4 i love you :)

i miss my sugarpie hunnybun <3 love you loads. haha bengang gila dengan en mahir sorang ni. dari pukul 2 call dia ajak jumpa TAK RETI RETI angkat phone. tape sayang i faham u tgh TIDO! LOL! okay hujan hujan hujan. tengah petir sambar menyambar. oh nooo! kena offline. tata love you guys too :) btw, im bored mannnnn!

back again :)

i love you ahmad mahir :)

When i'm with you you know you make my days so beautiful with your different ways you make me lighter i'm moving with the wind love. You know what you got for me i got for you too we can't pretend. Give me another chance to breathe in you got all the things i need and together we're just so complete you must be the reason i'm alive it's all so new yet so familiar everytime i'm next to you i feel somethin like forever yes that's right c'mon and talk to me let some uh that sweet poetic love fall over me. Give me another chance to breathe in you got all the things i need and together we're just so complete you must be the reason i'm alive. All this time i've been lookin for someone like you i never really thought you existed now i see my dreams are all comin true i just want to stay right here with you. We got together to create a new world only a real lover can understand the gift of this guy. Bells are ringin cause what you're bringin has got me singin. Now i can breathe in you're all i'm needin love is a breeze and spring is the season i'm feelin so alive inside and you must be the reason. All this time i've been lookin for someone like you i never really thought you existed now i see my dreams are all comin true. I just want to stay, right here with you. Give me another chance to breathe in you got all the things i need and together we'rejust so complete you must be the reason i'm alive <3