stop me if u can

okayy here it goes.
to be honest i cant forget my first love Faiz.
thats what everyone knows about me. i know im stupid.
and he will be in my heart forever and ever.
then here it comes someone i think who can take away
that feelings but sincerely i said NO. then he left me alone.
he's craving for a famous girl who i dont feel so. he hurt me.
what the heck? sometimes i do miss him. maybe?
so u wanna go? then go away. BYE BYE.
but that someone doesnt seems like my ex, faiz . my faiz? haha eiuww
he's totally different and i used to think and feel and told
everyone that he's perfect and he has the type to be my
future husband someday. but maybe that time im not
that matured. childish? haihhh im being stupid again
talking like shit about him whereas he never care?
but hes the one who taught me about life, sincerity,
honesty, and he made me be more stronger.
he never scold me never get angry with me never
fight with me never argue with me. how sweet is that? LIAR!
and maybe thats why its really hard for me to forget him.
as i grow to understand life im being moree thankful to him.
i hate to say this but i miss him. i hope he have a good life there.
Luckily i have all my friends who always there for me whenever
im up or down. they gimme support they make me feel special
they make me laughed and they are so special to me.
Now, its about my SPM. i have a big challenge to get through.
wo wo wo ! soo go for it izzzzzzzzzzz! SPMMMM 2010!

goodbye

Goodbyee MARCH ,

whatever happens let it happens.
theres still long long journey i've to get through :)

Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends &
you gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really
your friend, & that person you used to hate can make a
really good friend. You look for love. You find love & you
lose love. You realize all along that you’ve been loved.
You laugh, you cry. You laugh so hard that you cry.
You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t dont
that. You then learn from that & are glad that you did.
You have your ups & you have your downs. You see
good movies & you see bad movies. You wonder if your
life is just one big movie. You look at others & wish you
were them. You then realize who they are & are glad that
you’re you. You love life and you hate life. In the end,
you just find yourself being happy to be living life,
no matter what is thrown at you.

Dont ever let life put you down, just know that
you'll be you. At some point you will change, but
lifes not going to do that for you. You're going to
have to seek & find how that works, but just dont
let anyone stop you from doing what you need to do.

follow me,

PRETEND

It seems all of these words couldn't be further from the truth
How did I get here? What did I do?

Your eyes, telling me lies
And making me find myself
While you have your agenda, a life to persue

So please,
Let me be free from you.
And please, let me be free
I can face the truth.

I'm blind to all of your colors
That used to be rainbow then
My eyes, where did the go to?
Why disappear?

It's hard to be all alone
I never got through your disguise
I guess I'll just go, and face all my fear

So please,
Let me be free from you
And please, let me be free

I can face the truth.

stop it

okay izz, stop from thinking bout him -_______-" enough enough! grrrr nak menangis and jerit kuat kuat. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

my lovely bestfriend, kida yawww!

i miss u BIATCH <3

29 march 09, Sunday

Its been ages since i last updated my blog with something serious going on in my life. I'm not that busy. The reason is, I'm too free. And i spent most of my time helping My Mum with house chores, gardening, Myspacing, Ym-ing, frolicking around the mall even though it is just Jusco Aeon Au2. Maybe when I'm too bored i declared myself not busy for that day. haha. But its good to switch the busy button rather than switching the I'm too free button. When I'm too free, all that sudden death moments pops up on my mind. And from a smaller thoughts, day by day its getting bigger and bolder in my mind which makes me terrified of whats gonna happened in my future. So as a start for not being too terrified, make the best out of everything i do and accept the fate even though it fails to make me happy.

These past few days, I'm beginning to feel that I'm holding a huge responsibilities on my shoulder. I'm sorry Ma Abah, Kakak Along and friends. Before this i take things for granted. Insyallah starting from today, i wont annoyed you people with my selfishness and ignorance about all the important stuff. Deep down in my heart, I'm seriously regret with all my wrongdoings. And here, i would like to declared that half of Nur Izzati which is used to be heartless, cold, hardheaded, ungrateful and stubborn person will try to improve herself to be a better person. Insyallah.

I know that I'm good, but when there is no advice from anyone, i think that I'm turning into a spoilt brat monstrous human being. So thank god, I'm now back on track. And here i would like to express my deep gratitude to my sister of mine, Aainaa. She's insane yet a braniac! Her wisdom of thoughts always opened my eyes widely.

"you should think of your future not your stupid asshole problem. remember this, everything happen with loads of reason. no regret just keep looking forward"

Thank you kakak. Same goes to you, lets reach for the stars. Okay Captain!
Life is unpredictable. So prayer is the only weapon to survive. Only this can helps after bundles of perspiration formed on my forehead.

p/s : i miss my schoolmates, classmates from kindergarten till secondary school. love you loadss!

promises

What do u think about promises?
To me, personally i think it is the uniquely
human way of ordering the future,
making it predictable and reliable to the
extent that this is humanly possible.
Promises is really easy to make but hard to deliver.
Am i right? Times changed and people changed.
We wil never know whats gonna happen tomorrow.
Our mind our feelings our thought can easily changed
especially for those who has no principes in their lifes.
So, think before u make promises and if u did then
deliver ur promises sincerely n stick with ur principes.

mula lah aku punya sejarah hidup,

ishhh bengang nya dgn dia tuh. fine ah aku malas nk bebel pasal dia dekat sini kang terasa pulak la en. tapi serious dia TAK PERLU nak JUDGE aku! fuck weh sumpah aku tak suka kena judge. FACE IT! dh lama you kenal i tapi u still tak kenal i kan? berapa kali nk kena bgtau, u jangan buat sampai i BOSAN dgn you. i admit yang i mmg tak reti nk terus terang dgn you but please la tak kan you tak tau girl's feeling mcm mana. hermm okay izz, FORGET IT ):

back to my own story (:

okay bangun je pagi tadi dee call and dia cakap "weh izz, kau jangan tidur dah. aku nak on the phone dgn kau" HAHAHA comel je perempuan nih. lama gila tak on the phone dgn dee. i love you bestfriend (: then ktorang gossip cerita pasal family problem la. awww so sweet kan? herm then aku ajak dia dtg rumah sebab 'aku kan sekarang KONON nya kena grounded' BABI betul. dah la start esok balik sekolah ma yg ambil. FUCK OFF! tapi bagus jugak, boleh la aku berjimat (: around 3 smthng dee dtg rumah aku. ahaaa lama gila tak lepak dgn minah nih. guess what apa ktorang buat? haaa "ONLINE" gila tade life en? kecian la dekat dee, ala maklum la internet rumah terbakar. tu pasal jumpa internet je "weh weh aku nak online". HAHAHAHA "haaa ambil la kau, aku dh bosan online" haha then ktorang on webcam dgn rahman and farez :D sumpah best! dgn rahman la tak boleh bla. kantoi bilik dia ada 'RAHMAN' besar besar! gila mcm budak budak. tapi tape you still handsome la RAHMANku sayang. weheee!

lagi satu hot story which is budak tu tade ah HOT pun. sumpah kau kecoh gila en? dh la dulu bukan main lagi BATAK aku. siap letak photo aku besar besar dkt myspace kau. then time aku couple dulu, semua la kau nak gedik gedik. FINE, dulu aku memang boleh sabar! ye izz, sabar
sabar! dah lama lama kau punya perangai makin sial. mula la dia ni start cari gaduh dgn aku and she said "eh kau tu dah la BAJET HOT" ya allah gila tade life doe ayat kau. sumpah ayat macam budak baru nak up. yeahhh bila orang dh buat taik dgn kita, of couse kita akan DELETE dia dekat myspace kan? yeahh thank god aku telah delete dia but DULU la DULU! after 4 or 5 months dia add aku balik and cakap sorry semua. fine aku ni lembut hati sangat sampai aku approve dia semua. then ktorang kawan (: eiuwww sumpah kau TIKAM BELAKANG! add je lebih, lepas tu STALK aku macam puki. semua kawan aku kau nk add, nak kenal. yang paling tak boleh bla kau bajet dekat semua orang kau rapat dgn kawan aku. SUMPAH TADE LIFE doe! beragak ah nk UP sekali pun. dah tu, selalu baca comment aku? asal eh? best sangat eh? kau tu, nak cover pun, baik baik la sikit. BESTFRIEND kau tu rapat dgn aku so sorry la aku dah tau semua benda la from dia. HAHAHAHA now aku mmg deserve nak benci kau, delete kau, maki hamun kau, and bunuh kau(kalau aku nak). nasib baik aku baik tade la sampai nak bunuh bunuh semua nih. dah tu tadi baru aku dapat tau yang kau tetiba BUAT BLOG pulak tu. tak kisah la kau nk buat blog en tapi SUMPAH SEBIJIK gila mcm blog aku. then poyo poyo suruh semua orang tengok. bajet la kau, asshole! masyaallah kalau ye pun nak jadi 'wanna be' cari la orang lain. orang yang kau dah kutuk bajet hot jugak kau nak kan? SUMPAH TAK FAHAM -,- boo you, DOUBLE LOSER!

Sweet Sixteen Izz

yeah i'm not happy at all, sorry. First of all, thanks to Kida for the special birthday cake, eventhough kena share with douglas. i dont mind :) u make my day. haha gila perasan. but thanks girl, ILY ;)


And it has been a while since my last updated blog. I am very busy and many things happened to me recently. But bad thing ): So much i have to update about since last week. Whatever it is, i still hate my family. Blog is just what we call TROUBLE. It was my fault to be so vain. I shouldn't make a blog, but i've gone this far. No turning back, no regrets in life. Just lesson.

okayh i know im kind of being a jerk rite now but who cares?

I ♥ Joe Jonas

*haha i know im such a LAME-ass. so what? :D

p/s : He's one of my birthday wishlist. And he's ALL I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY :) hehh

<33

March

Gonna be a BUSY month,

and I've promised to skip these things for a lil while

I'd just hope that, well yeah it's gonna work.

Ouh EXAM - and i havent study!

My Birthday- celebrate maybe?
Study Study Study

[these are just apart of my long schedule for March]

im BUSY, what's there left I can say?

Bye,

backstabber,

somehow i feel hurt, somehow i really hurttt,

somehow i just let it be and somehow i dont care.

i build up myself and i be moree stronger :)

jealousy makes me wonder?

but i love them my piglet :)

opsssssy, heee.

2nd march

rindu prom ): sumpah best gila prom night ths year. i love them. goshhhh. time dance floor semua orang dah high gila. and thennnn balik kena marah dgn abah sebab balik lambat sangat! wtffffff siapa suruh kau tunggu aku bodoh?! hahaha i hate you mr saari. i dont know why!