oh hell-o!

weh perempuan, sumpah doe menyirap anjing dengan kau. HAHAH terasa? bagus lah :D

oh ya, it's not too late for me to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA aite?

HELLO people :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA && MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

please forgive all my wrongdoings, xoxo LOVE YOU <3

i'm not okay

Suddenly, I dont know why?
Why? oh Why?
WHY?

I've observed that life is getting harder day by day.
I'd figure peoples life, i saw the happiness on them but
who the hell know what was the inside? their feeling?
What do they feel? All my friends kept saying that
im like the happiest girl in the world, for like never
being moody nor depressed or whatsoever,
but who the hell knows whats was inside my heart?
sister? She's great. Even how hard im trying to hide
from her she'll know everything. But as a lil sister and
as a friends i dont wanna burden any one of my beloved .
But im still human rite? When i did cried or told them
something, so that means i really need their support.
By this time, as long as i can hide , i will hide it.
Sometimes i love to see people around me who i think
has a great life, they got what they want , they achive what
they dreams on, they love people who they really love.
I just wonder why cant i be in that way?
Maybe luck was not with me yet, but then i did feel ahh forget it.
I feel so down and so depressed, Why? I dont wanna have this
feeling and i hate it. I must try my hard to throw it away.
Its okay, Allah is always there for me anyway? hurm,
There was nowhere to hide, i Think.
Ignorance? is so my new bestfriend.
Pleasee ALLAH help me,

rollercoaster

Hey Izzati :)


Hurm, Lifes? is just like a rollercoaster, wehee~
We have our ups and downs and same goes to our
thought and feelings. Smiles? What do the smiles says?
It gives a thousand meaning to us, lets just figure it out ?
People will smile even they're depressed or broken?
People will smile even they have a lot of problem in their mind?
People will also smile even they dont like the people who
they smile with? How amazing a smile can be? Typical.
But I think a smile can twist to be like such a torn to our
heart . Because sometimes it might hurts more to smile
in front of everyone, then to cry all alone. Well, im just a
typical teenager who can be angry, insecure & confused.
Hiding from a real pain was so my biggest achievement.
Nobody's perfect tho. So, smilee people smileeeeee :)

byebye,

i'm back, finally! haha hey blogger, how are you?

so once again, its almost the end of my life and here i am, updating.

i know you've been coming around and waiting till i update, and i am deeply sorry that you had to wait.

so i've noticed HOW FUCKING DEAD MY BLOG IS.

but i still do check my cbox, so please do come and visit just to paster me to keep blogging, thank you :) idk why but i somehow get the blogging mojo in the middle of the night or earllyyy i the morning. like i suddenly wake up and while i was rolling on the bed, i had the sudden urge to blog. weird much? haha that's me! yeah i'm not goin to school today. kenapa tak pergi sekolah? "sakit perut la mak, tak larat nak jalan nih lepastu buat muka =,= haha" fine, at last lepas jugak. dee is waiting for me. i asked her to cut school today and she said that she had choir's practise so i was likee "ohmygod, sedap ke suara kau?" hahaha lek dee, aku gurau je. and yeah suddenly she asked me if i'm goin to school or not and i said "noooo, aku sakit perut, konon*" haha so now tengah menunggu abang yang dicintai tu keluar dari rumah so that this dee can enter my house :)

btw, do you know how much i love you mahir? im so sorry for everything. i'm afraid of losing you for second time.

I Love Them, i can't live without them. SERIOUSLY!

byebye,

imnotthatbrokenheartedgirlanymore.

Two Kinds

There are two kinds of people in this world. The kind who listens, and the kind who talks.

Which one are you?
Are you more of a listener, or are you more of a talker? Would you rather sit there listening to someone's problems, or be the person to share your problems with someone else? are you the kind of person who would be interested in what someone's grandmother made them for Hari Raya Aidilfitri last year, or the kind who enjoys sharing about what you did at the mall today? Because really, its so hard to find listeners nowadays.

People who actually understand and listen to what you say. And today, I realized, that Mahir is a REALLY good listener :) Anyway, today was fun, good company, great company in fact. really awesome bunch of people :D fantastic food, choir's practise and cheerleading's practise. lets do it again, and the next week, Sri Utama's 2nd term exam is on Monday 29 Jun. i planned to fail. okay? :) fuck off! HAHA!


xoxo, i love my boyfriend :) -izz

scenes from my life everyday

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down, probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than onceand it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.


So take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt, because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Many thoughts endlessly pondering in my mind likewise, my emotions have been changing endlessly the whole day. Having to think about exams and at the same time whatever that's bothering me or what had happened bothered me or even how im feeling right now. Such a burden huhh =.=

xoxo, i love my beautiful friends :) -izz

Blasts From The Past

INFERNO

move shake drop!

Yes. So, I know I have disappeared for awhile. To those who still come by here to see if there's any updates, sorry. and thank you :) I am not dead. I'm just tired with cheerleading's practise and school's choir now and have limited time to online.

it’s been one of those months where i have been building up a deluge of thoughts and ideas in my head, but remain far too much of a perfectionist to pen them down. mostly i’m just waiting for the right, quiet moment to sit down and organize all of my mental hodgepodge so that i may communicate them clearly — but i should know by now these moments always take too long to come. i miss my old friends, i do and i really need you guys back.


xoxo i love my baby, mahirrrrr <3>