Grow Up and Blow Away

oh hell-o!

2009-09-25T14:24:00.002+08:00

weh perempuan, sumpah doe menyirap anjing dengan kau. HAHAH terasa? bagus lah :D

oh ya, it's not too late for me to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA aite?

HELLO people :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA && MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

please forgive all my wrongdoings, xoxo LOVE YOU <3

i'm not okay

2009-09-11T12:18:00.004+08:00

Suddenly, I dont know why?
Why? oh Why?
WHY?

I've observed that life is getting harder day by day.
I'd figure peoples life, i saw the happiness on them but
who the hell know what was the inside? their feeling?
What do they feel? All my friends kept saying that
im like the happiest girl in the world, for like never
being moody nor depressed or whatsoever,
but who the hell knows whats was inside my heart?
sister? She's great. Even how hard im trying to hide
from her she'll know everything. But as a lil sister and
as a friends i dont wanna burden any one of my beloved .
But im still human rite? When i did cried or told them
something, so that means i really need their support.
By this time, as long as i can hide , i will hide it.
Sometimes i love to see people around me who i think
has a great life, they got what they want , they achive what
they dreams on, they love people who they really love.
I just wonder why cant i be in that way?
Maybe luck was not with me yet, but then i did feel ahh forget it.
I feel so down and so depressed, Why? I dont wanna have this
feeling and i hate it. I must try my hard to throw it away.
Its okay, Allah is always there for me anyway? hurm,
There was nowhere to hide, i Think.
Ignorance? is so my new bestfriend.
Pleasee ALLAH help me,

rollercoaster

2009-09-10T06:04:00.004+08:00

Hey Izzati :)

Hurm, Lifes? is just like a rollercoaster, wehee~
We have our ups and downs and same goes to our
thought and feelings. Smiles? What do the smiles says?
It gives a thousand meaning to us, lets just figure it out ?
People will smile even they're depressed or broken?
People will smile even they have a lot of problem in their mind?
People will also smile even they dont like the people who
they smile with? How amazing a smile can be? Typical.
But I think a smile can twist to be like such a torn to our
heart . Because sometimes it might hurts more to smile
in front of everyone, then to cry all alone. Well, im just a
typical teenager who can be angry, insecure & confused.
Hiding from a real pain was so my biggest achievement.
Nobody's perfect tho. So, smilee people smileeeeee :)

byebye,

i'm back, finally! haha hey blogger, how are you?

2009-09-09T07:21:00.006+08:00

so once again, its almost the end of my life and here i am, updating.

i know you've been coming around and waiting till i update, and i am deeply sorry that you had to wait.

so i've noticed HOW FUCKING DEAD MY BLOG IS.

but i still do check my cbox, so please do come and visit just to paster me to keep blogging, thank you :) idk why but i somehow get the blogging mojo in the middle of the night or earllyyy i the morning. like i suddenly wake up and while i was rolling on the bed, i had the sudden urge to blog. weird much? haha that's me! yeah i'm not goin to school today. kenapa tak pergi sekolah? "sakit perut la mak, tak larat nak jalan nih lepastu buat muka =,= haha" fine, at last lepas jugak. dee is waiting for me. i asked her to cut school today and she said that she had choir's practise so i was likee "ohmygod, sedap ke suara kau?" hahaha lek dee, aku gurau je. and yeah suddenly she asked me if i'm goin to school or not and i said "noooo, aku sakit perut, konon*" haha so now tengah menunggu abang yang dicintai tu keluar dari rumah so that this dee can enter my house :)

btw, do you know how much i love you mahir? im so sorry for everything. i'm afraid of losing you for second time.

I Love Them, i can't live without them. SERIOUSLY!

byebye,

imnotthatbrokenheartedgirlanymore.

Two Kinds

2009-06-25T21:44:00.003+08:00

There are two kinds of people in this world. The kind who listens, and the kind who talks.

Which one are you?
Are you more of a listener, or are you more of a talker? Would you rather sit there listening to someone's problems, or be the person to share your problems with someone else? are you the kind of person who would be interested in what someone's grandmother made them for Hari Raya Aidilfitri last year, or the kind who enjoys sharing about what you did at the mall today? Because really, its so hard to find listeners nowadays.

People who actually understand and listen to what you say. And today, I realized, that Mahir is a REALLY good listener :) Anyway, today was fun, good company, great company in fact. really awesome bunch of people :D fantastic food, choir's practise and cheerleading's practise. lets do it again, and the next week, Sri Utama's 2nd term exam is on Monday 29 Jun. i planned to fail. okay? :) fuck off! HAHA!

xoxo, i love my boyfriend :) -izz

scenes from my life everyday

2009-06-21T01:37:00.005+08:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down, probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than onceand it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt, because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Many thoughts endlessly pondering in my mind likewise, my emotions have been changing endlessly the whole day. Having to think about exams and at the same time whatever that's bothering me or what had happened bothered me or even how im feeling right now. Such a burden huhh =.=

xoxo, i love my beautiful friends :) -izz

Blasts From The Past

2009-06-18T23:36:00.004+08:00

INFERNO

move shake drop!

Yes. So, I know I have disappeared for awhile. To those who still come by here to see if there's any updates, sorry. and thank you :) I am not dead. I'm just tired with cheerleading's practise and school's choir now and have limited time to online.

it’s been one of those months where i have been building up a deluge of thoughts and ideas in my head, but remain far too much of a perfectionist to pen them down. mostly i’m just waiting for the right, quiet moment to sit down and organize all of my mental hodgepodge so that i may communicate them clearly — but i should know by now these moments always take too long to come. i miss my old friends, i do and i really need you guys back.

xoxo i love my baby, mahirrrrr <3>

hello world :)

2009-06-04T12:14:00.002+08:00

meet my beautiful khaleeda bustaman :)

from left : eylia, me, jenny and layla :)

I think i'm still trying to find myself & I think I have quite an attitude problemI seriously need to fix it, sigh. Is this a growing up process that we have to all go through? finding ourselves. Because I'm still not comfortable being in my own skin & I still love myself not enough. I feel bad for every single thing I can feel bad at. Why?

why why why

WHY I'm really counfused this week, confused at my own thoughts.

CONFUSED NYA =.=

sick for almost everyday

2009-06-01T12:52:00.001+08:00

Can someone tell me why whenever things are
really good ,
things get really bad,
really quickly?

I hate it .

sweet sixteen faghaaaaaa :)

2009-06-01T12:21:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday!
i love you bestfriend :)
enjoy ur sweet sixteen, 1st Jun '09

xoxo, izz <3

bosan punya pasal =.=

2009-05-30T20:00:00.002+08:00

What's one thing you do when you're mad?About what?

Ever been called a bitch?

I'm not a bitch

Do you like where you live?

How's your ex?

PALING KISAH =.=

How often do you lose your voice?

Always

How many kids do you want?

herm 2 or 3 only.

How's your sister?

shes in India, i miss her.

Does anyone like you?

idk and i dont even care

Are you a good babysitter?

No, and never

Do you have a job?

bodoh punya soalan, aku student lagi la weh.

Who was the last person to make you smile?

Ahmad Mahir :)

Are you LEGALLY able to drive?

Do you have any plans for the weekend?

herm i dont think so.

Who is your favorite person to have long conversations with?

Faghaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Will you be in a relationship next month?

Yess :)

Are you any good at math?

Not that good actually but i love math

Do you have a reason to smile right now?

Yes :)

What was the first thing you thought this morning?

Nothing, missing someone.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?

I dont think so.

Your enemy is at your doorstep begging for forgiveness, what would you do?

Oh, semua orang patut dimaafkan but NOT YOU, BLAH! HAHA

Last time you felt bad about something?

last two days.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

i dont know =.=

Do you miss your past?

No, HAHA

Do you ever think "what if"?

Always

Are you happy with the way things are going?

nahhh

Would you ever get a tattoo?

Never

Do you mind sleeping on the floor?

Siapa suka sleeping on the floor, daaa!

Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

yes, my fucking asshole brother.

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?

i hope so, *muka gatal*

Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?

Yupp

This time last year, what was your love life like?

Heh

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone?

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?

Yessss,

Where is the person you miss the most right now?

Pavi lah kot, herm

Video BAIK PUNYA!

2009-05-22T17:28:00.003+08:00

meet my iqmal, fauzan and shane <3 i love you guys weh!

Happy Teacher's Day!

2009-05-22T17:10:00.005+08:00

To post more entries regarding on my feelings and all that tiny winy silly lil thing that i used to post several months ago coz im a human with loads of emotions and love to express each one of my expressions in diff kind of way every time and that makes me a special person from any other heterosexual homosepian living in this planet but i somehow have to wait until both leagues are over and i deem, i got ample of time to blog about almost everything but preferably MORE about ME rather than anything else. HAHA izz cayunk kamo *eiuwww rempit bhai* LOL!

Fuhh. I typed in one breathe.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! eventhough kida nana azureen amelia and amira tak datang, aku still boleh HIDUP! yeah im proud of it :)

meet my fett :)

meet my emil and redza annoying :) HAHA

budak budak primary yang tak reti duduk diam. urghh

LOL, redza again =,=

meet my beautiful friends, nureen farahin and yasmin :)

meet my shafira :)

meet my beautiful TASHA :) i love you <3

xoxo darling :) love you mahir *tetbe*

Sri Utama's Trip

2009-05-20T19:45:00.003+08:00

cilok pictures ni from ivan's blog. sorry ivann. HAHA!
Educational Trip
Beryl's Chocolate Factory

oh money, oh daddy!

2009-05-20T19:02:00.005+08:00

haha, izz dah gila. i really wanna go there. "Keimyung University In Korea". WOWWW! please daddy pleaseeeee :)

As the time flies so fast, i'd realise that we need to start thinking smart. Be smart in every move we take, especially when it comes to money. money, money, oh money. Money plays an important role in our lives. People say, Money can buy anything in life, and that includes love and i must say, part of me do agree with it.

Everything circulating within our daily lives need cash.

When you eat (food),
when you drink (teh o' ice),
when you take your bath (sabun palmolive),
and even when you shit (tandas awam serbaguna).
As i was saying, everything in life needs money :) malaysia malaysia! haiyaa.

i love you mahir

2009-05-17T21:37:00.004+08:00

I only feel like posting the pictures today,
So pictures below :D

hello loser :)

2009-05-17T21:25:00.003+08:00

Bitch no.1 is seriously TOO OVERR LAH
She is such a busybody
and she has one stupid mouth
which talk nonsense which actually hurts people's feelings

&& This is what I found recently about her
I mean I don't believe it when I heard bout it
Cause it was told by my enemy
So that's why I don't believe
But now I think I'm 100% believing it
This bitch loves breaking people's friendship
She loves to make your relationship worse
&& Finally break it!
HA! Even if people didn't tell me that
I already realised it earlier on
Just not really sure only :)
That's why I didn't wanna say about it first

Please lahh weh!
I'm begging you
Please get a life of yours
Stop being oh-so-mature and giving advices to people
You're not that perfect and great anyway
and I think you're the most childish person I've ever seen
But acting so mature
&& Stop spying on me OKAY?
Asking where I'm going always and who I'm going with
Hello! Like i said it's my choice
So shut your blardy mouth
Before I shut them up for you
You better stop doing this
Or else it's end of our friendship

I'd rather live without you
Than to get threaten by you every single day :)

PS// Seriously, I need my own life
Don't control my life for me please, :D

boring post

2009-05-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

At a certain age, u will realize that myspace is lamee-ass.
facebook will be the best connection between u and ur friends or maybe olldd friends.
Though i haven't understand how to use that fuckingbook.
but someday it would be my main things-to-do everyday. that is,
to check my facebook account. hee :D

my school day wasn't so bad.
can say nicee. i love going to school now. HAHA!

update more later. lazyyyyy :D

1 2 3 4 i love you :)

2009-05-14T18:26:00.002+08:00

i miss my sugarpie hunnybun <3 love you loads. haha bengang gila dengan en mahir sorang ni. dari pukul 2 call dia ajak jumpa TAK RETI RETI angkat phone. tape sayang i faham u tgh TIDO! LOL! okay hujan hujan hujan. tengah petir sambar menyambar. oh nooo! kena offline. tata love you guys too :) btw, im bored mannnnn!

back again :)

2009-05-14T01:20:00.003+08:00

i love you ahmad mahir :)

When i'm with you you know you make my days so beautiful with your different ways you make me lighter i'm moving with the wind love. You know what you got for me i got for you too we can't pretend. Give me another chance to breathe in you got all the things i need and together we're just so complete you must be the reason i'm alive it's all so new yet so familiar everytime i'm next to you i feel somethin like forever yes that's right c'mon and talk to me let some uh that sweet poetic love fall over me. Give me another chance to breathe in you got all the things i need and together we're just so complete you must be the reason i'm alive. All this time i've been lookin for someone like you i never really thought you existed now i see my dreams are all comin true i just want to stay right here with you. We got together to create a new world only a real lover can understand the gift of this guy. Bells are ringin cause what you're bringin has got me singin. Now i can breathe in you're all i'm needin love is a breeze and spring is the season i'm feelin so alive inside and you must be the reason. All this time i've been lookin for someone like you i never really thought you existed now i see my dreams are all comin true. I just want to stay, right here with you. Give me another chance to breathe in you got all the things i need and together we'rejust so complete you must be the reason i'm alive <3

My Nur Afiqah Azni :)

2009-04-25T09:45:00.002+08:00

We've come a long way, haven't we?

How long has it been?
7 years? 8, maybe?

No matter how long the years, we're still together, aren't we?
Do you remember how we first met?

I do.

It was in primary 3.
As if we're meant to be.

As if we WERE lovers in our past lives, like you said.

I'm sorry I dont notice things as much as I should.

I'm sorry I'm always neglecting you.
I'm sorry I'm not attentive enough & that I dont know when things aren't right.

I'm sorry I'm not much of a best friend.

We might not go out everyday like best friends should.
We might not talk on the phone for hours like best friends should.

We might not go over to each others homes so much that we practically live
there, like best friends should.

But who said there were things that best friends should or should not do?
Who said there was a law that insisted on that?

Who said we had to do what others say we should?

They're not us.
WE are.

We dont do all that stuff.
But we're still US, aren't we?

And I want to stay us for the rest of our lives.

i love you

My Diana and Farah Hanan :)

2009-04-25T09:37:00.002+08:00

You two are the most loyal friends I've known in this whole world.
You girls have stuck with me all through my hard times.

6 years with Diana and 2 with Fagha.
You two are the only people I've still been close with after primary school.

Thank you for not being bored of me.
Thank you for bearing with my bossiness and arrogance.

Thank you for remembering all the important things.
Thank you for staying by my side.

Thank you, for YOU.

We might not talk as much as we used to do,
but you girls will always be my two hands,

it's as if I cant get rid of you even if I wanted to.

And let me tell you, I dont.
And I never will.

So I guess you guys are stuck with me for life.
THANK GOD.

i love you.

to the loved ones :)

2009-04-25T09:23:00.002+08:00

My khaleeda:

You have no idea how thankful I am that I met you.

Being your friend is one of the best choices I've ever made.

I sometimes wonder:

Why didn't I realise it earlier?

Why didn't I realise how closely connected we are?

Why didn't I realise that we had so much in common?

Realise, that You + Me = a beautiful friendship?
Like they say, better late than never.

And I'm so glad that I DID realise all that, and all at the right time.
I'm honoured that you come to me when you have problems.

That you confide in me when you're down.
That you choose me over so many to tell your worries and secrets.

Honoured, that you trust me.

You're so much more than just a friend to me.

You really are one of the most beautiful things that has happened to me.

i love you

Kida, Dee, Fagha and Jenny:

I'm sorry I haven't really been hanging out with you guys much.

Truth is, I haven't been having time for anything. Not even my own family.

I dont even remember the last time I called any of you.
I've just been so busy with my school work and the cheerleading and all.

I'm so sorry I cant spend more time with you guys.
I promise I'll try my best to give as much of my time to you as possible.

Just dont leave me. Please?

i love you all.

Pampered, Loved and Hated,

Nur Izzati <3

mrs singh, fuck you!

2009-04-25T09:11:00.001+08:00

izz said, i need my phone back ): thank you

la la land

2009-04-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

My blog is so dead
Damn busy with school, so many things to do, so little time ):

I think im becoming depressed. The littlest things make me sad. Its like inevitable or something. I cant get over how my parents always get me to do things but not my brother. I have to many things to worry about already. Sometimes i feel like curling up into a ball and dying. I mean its not like anyone would care. Then all the worries will go away. No more school, friend, parental problems. freedom.I think people take me for granted. Not everyone does, but many do.I wonder where my friends have gone. It's like no one bothers anymore.It's hard not to think about the future. I wonder ten years from now if i'll even be alive. Wondering why i even bother trying when everyone has cut themselves off. I'm still trying to hang on. The pain goes away when i remember the good old times when life was filled with rainbows and unicorns. It seems these days the latest trend in life is to be dead. death is everywhere. war. killing. murders.Its hard not to get sucked into the deep, deep hole of what we call life, which ends in death.

SOOOOORRRRRYYYYY

2009-04-14T19:46:00.000+08:00

aku memang bodoh, and so what? -_____________-"

boring day

2009-04-14T18:31:00.002+08:00

okay today macam biasa la sekolah, tak ada la have fun sangat. okay okay la. then around 11 something kida tak ada. she leave me alone, ouch damn bored. time lunch tadi dengan kira je, but it was fun sebab ktorang cerita pasal korean movie, HAHAHA! then fadhli and ady join us. after we had lunch, form 4 T ada free lessons, oh god bosan gila weh sebab kida tak ada. my life sucks without her, i love you kida <3 haaa after school hujan lebat yang teramat sangat ): hari ni sumpah bosan tak tau apasal. LALALOSER!

arghh izz is missing someone, SECRET :)
btw tadi dapat result, OMG! sumpah nak menangis. teruk gila weh, nanti aku bagitau eh macam mana rupa dia. HAHA! shitttttttttttttttttt, i hate school.

recently

2009-04-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

HI PEOPLE :)

How are you guys doing? Recently, umm what can I tell about myself, umm physically, I'm doing pretty good. Emotionally, I'm not okay. Yes, I'm nt okay. Well, don't want to elaborate further aite :) So, this week is a tough week fr me. The toughest week. *sigh* On Monday, it was okay. Tuesday until Friday, uhh, catastrophe fr me. umm I cried every night. I get emo easily this week. Heh.

Just now, after had my dinner, umm again, I cried. I cried a lot this week. Thats all I can conclude. Haha. Well, enough.

And the best part ; I lost 1kg! Haha. Even though, it just 1kg, you know how much it means to me. HAHA. It is because, I'd lost my appetite this week because of all this craziness and STRESS! ahh, pape lah. take care darlings. ILY :)

bring it onnnn

2009-04-07T10:08:00.003+08:00

YEAYYYYYYY! FINALLY! SCHOOL HOLIDAYS :D
HAVE FUN GUYS!
H-E-L-L-O :)

Whoa, it feels good to be back! Aha. GAHHHHHHH. I hate going to school this year. I hate Form Four. Haish. And FYI, I'm not even touch my homework YET. OMG. I'm so lazy to do or even to look at the homework. Goshhhhhh. But, I have to finish them by end of this week. RIGHTTTTTTTTT.

stop me if u can

2009-03-31T23:40:00.002+08:00

okayy here it goes.
to be honest i cant forget my first love Faiz.
thats what everyone knows about me. i know im stupid.
and he will be in my heart forever and ever.
then here it comes someone i think who can take away
that feelings but sincerely i said NO. then he left me alone.
he's craving for a famous girl who i dont feel so. he hurt me.
what the heck? sometimes i do miss him. maybe?
so u wanna go? then go away. BYE BYE.
but that someone doesnt seems like my ex, faiz . my faiz? haha eiuww
he's totally different and i used to think and feel and told
everyone that he's perfect and he has the type to be my
future husband someday. but maybe that time im not
that matured. childish? haihhh im being stupid again
talking like shit about him whereas he never care?
but hes the one who taught me about life, sincerity,
honesty, and he made me be more stronger.
he never scold me never get angry with me never
fight with me never argue with me. how sweet is that? LIAR!
and maybe thats why its really hard for me to forget him.
as i grow to understand life im being moree thankful to him.
i hate to say this but i miss him. i hope he have a good life there.
Luckily i have all my friends who always there for me whenever
im up or down. they gimme support they make me feel special
they make me laughed and they are so special to me.
Now, its about my SPM. i have a big challenge to get through.
wo wo wo ! soo go for it izzzzzzzzzzz! SPMMMM 2010!

goodbye

2009-03-31T23:02:00.001+08:00

Goodbyee MARCH ,

whatever happens let it happens.
theres still long long journey i've to get through :)

Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends &
you gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really
your friend, & that person you used to hate can make a
really good friend. You look for love. You find love & you
lose love. You realize all along that you’ve been loved.
You laugh, you cry. You laugh so hard that you cry.
You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t dont
that. You then learn from that & are glad that you did.
You have your ups & you have your downs. You see
good movies & you see bad movies. You wonder if your
life is just one big movie. You look at others & wish you
were them. You then realize who they are & are glad that
you’re you. You love life and you hate life. In the end,
you just find yourself being happy to be living life,
no matter what is thrown at you.

Dont ever let life put you down, just know that
you'll be you. At some point you will change, but
lifes not going to do that for you. You're going to
have to seek & find how that works, but just dont
let anyone stop you from doing what you need to do.

follow me,

2009-03-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

PRETEND

It seems all of these words couldn't be further from the truth
How did I get here? What did I do?

Your eyes, telling me lies
And making me find myself
While you have your agenda, a life to persue

So please,
Let me be free from you.
And please, let me be free
I can face the truth.

I'm blind to all of your colors
That used to be rainbow then
My eyes, where did the go to?
Why disappear?

It's hard to be all alone
I never got through your disguise
I guess I'll just go, and face all my fear

So please,
Let me be free from you
And please, let me be free

I can face the truth.

stop it

2009-03-29T23:39:00.001+08:00

okay izz, stop from thinking bout him -_______-" enough enough! grrrr nak menangis and jerit kuat kuat. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

my lovely bestfriend, kida yawww!

2009-03-29T23:32:00.003+08:00

i miss u BIATCH <3

29 march 09, Sunday

2009-03-29T23:07:00.003+08:00

Its been ages since i last updated my blog with something serious going on in my life. I'm not that busy. The reason is, I'm too free. And i spent most of my time helping My Mum with house chores, gardening, Myspacing, Ym-ing, frolicking around the mall even though it is just Jusco Aeon Au2. Maybe when I'm too bored i declared myself not busy for that day. haha. But its good to switch the busy button rather than switching the I'm too free button. When I'm too free, all that sudden death moments pops up on my mind. And from a smaller thoughts, day by day its getting bigger and bolder in my mind which makes me terrified of whats gonna happened in my future. So as a start for not being too terrified, make the best out of everything i do and accept the fate even though it fails to make me happy.

These past few days, I'm beginning to feel that I'm holding a huge responsibilities on my shoulder. I'm sorry Ma Abah, Kakak Along and friends. Before this i take things for granted. Insyallah starting from today, i wont annoyed you people with my selfishness and ignorance about all the important stuff. Deep down in my heart, I'm seriously regret with all my wrongdoings. And here, i would like to declared that half of Nur Izzati which is used to be heartless, cold, hardheaded, ungrateful and stubborn person will try to improve herself to be a better person. Insyallah.

I know that I'm good, but when there is no advice from anyone, i think that I'm turning into a spoilt brat monstrous human being. So thank god, I'm now back on track. And here i would like to express my deep gratitude to my sister of mine, Aainaa. She's insane yet a braniac! Her wisdom of thoughts always opened my eyes widely.

"you should think of your future not your stupid asshole problem. remember this, everything happen with loads of reason. no regret just keep looking forward"

Thank you kakak. Same goes to you, lets reach for the stars. Okay Captain!
Life is unpredictable. So prayer is the only weapon to survive. Only this can helps after bundles of perspiration formed on my forehead.

p/s : i miss my schoolmates, classmates from kindergarten till secondary school. love you loadss!

promises

2009-03-22T11:55:00.001+08:00

What do u think about promises?
To me, personally i think it is the uniquely
human way of ordering the future,
making it predictable and reliable to the
extent that this is humanly possible.
Promises is really easy to make but hard to deliver.
Am i right? Times changed and people changed.
We wil never know whats gonna happen tomorrow.
Our mind our feelings our thought can easily changed
especially for those who has no principes in their lifes.
So, think before u make promises and if u did then
deliver ur promises sincerely n stick with ur principes.

mula lah aku punya sejarah hidup,

2009-03-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

ishhh bengang nya dgn dia tuh. fine ah aku malas nk bebel pasal dia dekat sini kang terasa pulak la en. tapi serious dia TAK PERLU nak JUDGE aku! fuck weh sumpah aku tak suka kena judge. FACE IT! dh lama you kenal i tapi u still tak kenal i kan? berapa kali nk kena bgtau, u jangan buat sampai i BOSAN dgn you. i admit yang i mmg tak reti nk terus terang dgn you but please la tak kan you tak tau girl's feeling mcm mana. hermm okay izz, FORGET IT ):

back to my own story (:

okay bangun je pagi tadi dee call and dia cakap "weh izz, kau jangan tidur dah. aku nak on the phone dgn kau" HAHAHA comel je perempuan nih. lama gila tak on the phone dgn dee. i love you bestfriend (: then ktorang gossip cerita pasal family problem la. awww so sweet kan? herm then aku ajak dia dtg rumah sebab 'aku kan sekarang KONON nya kena grounded' BABI betul. dah la start esok balik sekolah ma yg ambil. FUCK OFF! tapi bagus jugak, boleh la aku berjimat (: around 3 smthng dee dtg rumah aku. ahaaa lama gila tak lepak dgn minah nih. guess what apa ktorang buat? haaa "ONLINE" gila tade life en? kecian la dekat dee, ala maklum la internet rumah terbakar. tu pasal jumpa internet je "weh weh aku nak online". HAHAHAHA "haaa ambil la kau, aku dh bosan online" haha then ktorang on webcam dgn rahman and farez :D sumpah best! dgn rahman la tak boleh bla. kantoi bilik dia ada 'RAHMAN' besar besar! gila mcm budak budak. tapi tape you still handsome la RAHMANku sayang. weheee!

lagi satu hot story which is budak tu tade ah HOT pun. sumpah kau kecoh gila en? dh la dulu bukan main lagi BATAK aku. siap letak photo aku besar besar dkt myspace kau. then time aku couple dulu, semua la kau nak gedik gedik. FINE, dulu aku memang boleh sabar! ye izz, sabar
sabar! dah lama lama kau punya perangai makin sial. mula la dia ni start cari gaduh dgn aku and she said "eh kau tu dah la BAJET HOT" ya allah gila tade life doe ayat kau. sumpah ayat macam budak baru nak up. yeahhh bila orang dh buat taik dgn kita, of couse kita akan DELETE dia dekat myspace kan? yeahh thank god aku telah delete dia but DULU la DULU! after 4 or 5 months dia add aku balik and cakap sorry semua. fine aku ni lembut hati sangat sampai aku approve dia semua. then ktorang kawan (: eiuwww sumpah kau TIKAM BELAKANG! add je lebih, lepas tu STALK aku macam puki. semua kawan aku kau nk add, nak kenal. yang paling tak boleh bla kau bajet dekat semua orang kau rapat dgn kawan aku. SUMPAH TADE LIFE doe! beragak ah nk UP sekali pun. dah tu, selalu baca comment aku? asal eh? best sangat eh? kau tu, nak cover pun, baik baik la sikit. BESTFRIEND kau tu rapat dgn aku so sorry la aku dah tau semua benda la from dia. HAHAHAHA now aku mmg deserve nak benci kau, delete kau, maki hamun kau, and bunuh kau(kalau aku nak). nasib baik aku baik tade la sampai nak bunuh bunuh semua nih. dah tu tadi baru aku dapat tau yang kau tetiba BUAT BLOG pulak tu. tak kisah la kau nk buat blog en tapi SUMPAH SEBIJIK gila mcm blog aku. then poyo poyo suruh semua orang tengok. bajet la kau, asshole! masyaallah kalau ye pun nak jadi 'wanna be' cari la orang lain. orang yang kau dah kutuk bajet hot jugak kau nak kan? SUMPAH TAK FAHAM -,- boo you, DOUBLE LOSER!

Sweet Sixteen Izz

2009-03-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

yeah i'm not happy at all, sorry. First of all, thanks to Kida for the special birthday cake, eventhough kena share with douglas. i dont mind :) u make my day. haha gila perasan. but thanks girl, ILY ;)

And it has been a while since my last updated blog. I am very busy and many things happened to me recently. But bad thing ): So much i have to update about since last week. Whatever it is, i still hate my family. Blog is just what we call TROUBLE. It was my fault to be so vain. I shouldn't make a blog, but i've gone this far. No turning back, no regrets in life. Just lesson.

okayh i know im kind of being a jerk rite now but who cares?

I ♥ Joe Jonas

*haha i know im such a LAME-ass. so what? :D

p/s : He's one of my birthday wishlist. And he's ALL I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY :) hehh

<33

March

2009-03-04T23:02:00.001+08:00

Gonna be a BUSY month,

and I've promised to skip these things for a lil while

I'd just hope that, well yeah it's gonna work.

Ouh EXAM - and i havent study!

My Birthday- celebrate maybe?
Study Study Study

[these are just apart of my long schedule for March]

im BUSY, what's there left I can say?

Bye,

backstabber,

2009-03-04T22:59:00.001+08:00

somehow i feel hurt, somehow i really hurttt,

somehow i just let it be and somehow i dont care.

i build up myself and i be moree stronger :)

jealousy makes me wonder?

but i love them my piglet :)

opsssssy, heee.

2nd march

2009-03-02T19:23:00.002+08:00

rindu prom ): sumpah best gila prom night ths year. i love them. goshhhh. time dance floor semua orang dah high gila. and thennnn balik kena marah dgn abah sebab balik lambat sangat! wtffffff siapa suruh kau tunggu aku bodoh?! hahaha i hate you mr saari. i dont know why!

TIDUR TIME!

2009-02-18T01:58:00.002+08:00

haaa i miss my sabah boy aka ahmad mahir <3 abc special, fly tuition, waking u up every morning. goshhh i miss you loads ): okay dah izz, its time fr you to sleep. wohooo school <3

dear fucking ex boyfriend! eh weh sumpah kau tade life kan? go and fuck urself FUCKER! sumpah penat tgk numb phone kau doe. serious aku boleh buta tgk numb kau so its better for you to find your OWN LIFE! get it? and please stop from contact my friends >,< gila kau tade life doe!

17 february,

2009-02-18T01:01:00.006+08:00

goshhhh i cant wait fr ths sunday bebeh :D i miss you kakak! hee haa huu hiiii bosaaaannnn. dekat sekolah tadi bosan sebab shane tade dlm class. HAHA seperti biasa time physics aku and kida PASTI akan buat hal dgn mr AK. sorry sir, i knw i'll get fail for my physics's test ): haa tadi aku dgn kida tido time physics 2 period :D oh goddd, bila bangun je sumpah fresh nak mampos! HAHAHA! gila babeng doe ktorang. aku pergi bantai guna ayat "period pain" and sir straight DIAM doe. and he was like "oh okay, u can sleep" WAOOOO! gila ah. kida bajet nak copy ayat aku tapi tak lepas. hee sorry sayang! setiap kali physics ktorang buat hal dgn sir, sumpah kecian doe mr AK. *muka bitchy* jahat gila kau kida. acehhh kida konon padehal aku pun sama en en. if ada shane atleast tade ah ktorang nk tido.

after lunch at 1.45pm,
aku kida and natasha pergi toilet betulkan rambut semua then haaa aktiviti harian ktorang bermula tht is 'snap picture dlm toilet mcm orang gila' HAHAHA! it was funn. dean and douglas semak je join ktorang. dah la suka hati je masuk girl's toilet. haha bodoh bodoh. ktorang guna phone douglas sampai memory full kot. menyirap je muka mamat tu. haa time biology ada free class then aku and kida lepak dekat form 4 O sebab diorang pun ada free class. then cerita pasal 'porn' bapak babi doe korang. dah la panggil aku 'noob' wehhh, mana ada aku noob -______-" nerd je kot, HAHA! whatever! nahhh photos :D kelakar nak mati

OMG, gila en ktorang? actually banyak lagi tapi malas nak upload. sampai esok pun takkan habis. HAHAHA bangang bangang! i love you loads bitchhh<3

while waiting

2009-02-17T00:29:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long

Some are true and some aren't.
You guess which.

16 february :D

2009-02-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

okay today macam mana? haa macam tu la. goshhh fight dgn mahir punya pasal sampai aku pergi sekolah pun tade mood. bak kata pepatah, mandi tak basah, tidur tak lena, makan tak kenyang haa study pun macam tak masuk pape en. hohhh teruk ah but atlast okay jugak, i love you mahir<3 ish bengang gila dengan minah sorang ni which is KIDA! engkau en, kalau bab bab tipu cikgu mmg hebat. haha tadi masa dtg sekolah dah la dtg lambat. tinggalkan aku sorang sorang. grr menyirap doe! then time ktorang tgh siapkan hw english yg dh 2weeks ktorang tak buat buat then minah ni boleh bantai tk bawak buku english. sumpah bangang! HAHAHA, then pura pura demam balik rumah. cuak dgn ms Aida punya pasal. hoho! guess wht kida? ms Aida masuk class tak ajar pape pun. bagi hw suruh siapkan dlm class haha macam bodoh! buat rugi je minah ni berlakon :D dgn aku tak dapat le jeppp! HUAHAHAHA, dah ah kena balik sorang plus aku tgh out of mood gila doe tadi. damn asshole! balik balik je mandi tidurrrrr! wehee best best bangun tido je dah OKAY and NOW, i'm so fucking shit happyyyy! *takpasal* wehhh izz asal kau bangang sangat ambil pure science? physics macam cibai susah la. FUCK YOU PHYSICS! okay dah, nak bunuh diri byeeee -_______-"

FRIENDS :D

2009-02-15T01:43:00.003+08:00

haa i knw my valentine's day tade la best mana pun. honestly la! tapi ntah la malas nk fikir sebab bukannya patut nak celebrate sangat just fr fun. aww so sweet gila tadi. pergi mana mana ada orang jual roses la, candy and so much more. goshhh BEST GILA AH! tak tipuu. and ramai gila nampak couples pakai couple's shirt :D so sweet. wahai ahmad mahir, i love you<3 for the first time celebrate valentine with boyfriend and friends. goshh best best (: then all the girls yg masuk forever 21, pavilion dapat free rose. ahaa aku pun bangga gila la en dapat rose padehal free je. gagaga lady ghagha *hehh takpasal* i love you bestfriends (KIDA and FAGHA) muahhhh love you loads<3

kida fagha and dany

me fagha and kida

me fagha and kida <3

oh rose, i miss you <3

fucking asshole BITCH!

2009-02-14T21:24:00.002+08:00

BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI. BENCI HARI NI.

i'm so sorry, enough is enough! i'm fucking tired with you. BOO YOU FUCKING LOSER!

Happy Valentine's Day

2009-02-13T10:30:00.000+08:00

The way you turn me on
Is like the switch of a light
Because when I see you
I think: What a sight!
You brighten things up
Throughout the whole day
And when you're about to leave
I say to myself: Please stay

Some day you might be my lover
Some day you might be my friend
Whichever one comes first
I hope will never end
Although I don't really know you
You mean a ton to me
A ton as big as heaven
Is what I want you to see

Baby I'm Yours- Arctic Monkeys

2009-02-13T09:18:00.003+08:00

Baby, I'm yours (baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours (yours) until the stars fall from the sky,
Yours (yours) until the rivers all run dry
In other words, until I die

Baby, I'm yours (baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours (yours) until the sun no longer shines,
Yours (yours) until the poets run out of rhyme
In other words, until the end of time

I'm gonna stay right here by your side,
Do my best to keep you satisfied
Nothin' in the world can drive me away
'Cause every day, you'll hear me say

Baby, I'm yours
And I'll be yours until two and two is three,
Yours until the mountains crumble to the sea
In other words, until eternity

Baby, I'm yours
'Til the stars fall from the sky
Baby, I'm yours
'Til the rivers all run dry
Baby, I'm yours
'Til the sun no longer shines
Baby, I'm yours
Til the poets run out of rhyme

I LOVE YOU MAHIR <3

sick

2009-02-13T09:02:00.002+08:00

almost everyweek aku nak demam. kenapa eh? kadang kadang risau jugak. haihh -_____-" tp ntah la tak tau nk kisah ke tak. fine, forget it ): now, semua orang tgh sekolah aku ddk rumah baring atas katil, sakit perut, sakit hati, sakit badan. ahhhhh semua lah aku sakit! grr!
yeahhh btw,

happy birthday Nor Diana Ishak, BFF sampai mati :D 12 February 2009 <3
sorry tak dapat buat party untuk kau. but its okay, ONE DAY nanti aku akan buat. dont worry my dear, i love you!

Grow Up

2009-02-11T18:55:00.001+08:00

Almost a year ago everything was different. People's attitude, the way they dress, the way they speak, who they hang out with etc etc.

I find it interesting how in just a matter of months, a single person can change so much.

I think I've changed. No. Not changed, Grown. Maturing. What ever word fits you. I've compared myself now and then, how tangled up my life is some time ago, well now too sometimes, but I find it I handle them differently.

Compared others with their past, some change for the good, some just for the worst. They dont realised it, well not that I care. Its their life, and if it harms mine, well probably I'll stay away from them.

Why am I talking about this? Just reminiscing about the past.

People change and grow and mature. They wont be the same as they are. Its nature way of moving foward. Maybe I should too :) Life is waiting to be explore and here I am reminiscing the past. haha! Feeling deep -_______-"

Dear Loser,

2009-02-11T18:41:00.002+08:00

101% fan of Mahir,

0% fan of you.
Deal with it.

boringgg dayyyy!

2009-02-11T18:14:00.002+08:00

okay hari ni sekolah mcm biasa. tak best sangat tak bosan sangat. just nice la cuma lagi best kalau sorang mamat ni tade, SUMPAH AMAN gila SSU. eh fucker, kau tau tak yg semua org dekat SSU tu tak suka kau? eiuwww bapak annoying doe kau. bajet kaya, bajet hebat, bajet handsome && bajet PERFECT! ishhh meluat ah weh. HAHAHA, aku dgn kida kalau sehari tak kutuk tht guy tu sumpah tak sah doe. weheee tadi dia kena 'palau' dgn semua org. goshhhh gila bahagia hidup aku.

back to my story NOT him!

hermmm, lama tak update blog. sorry ): busy busy busy! and banyak homework! lately aku happy gila <3 HAHAHA I LOVE YOU! ahaaa btw, sumpah sedih sebab jenny and annissa nak pergi teknik. herm, im gonna miss you guys! please la jangan pergi. im serious wehh ): sorry gila kalau aku ada buat korang kecik hati dgn aku. i knw since aku pindah sekolah semua, aku jarang hang out dgn korang but it doesn mean aku dah malas nk layan korang. yeahhh sekolah dh jauh, balik lambat, ptg dh penat plus homework. kalau keluar pun, selalunya mesti last minute. bukan tak nak ajak tapi harap korang faham. nnt lagi la 'keluar last minute'. wtf apa aku merapu. SORRY SANGAT SANGAT and seriously aku sayang korang gila babi. dont worry, if korang pergi mana pun, aku still takkan lupa our friendship :D take care!

*haaaaa nak menangis* sebab tak pernah hilang bestfriends -_____________-

hello blogger

2009-02-08T13:32:00.000+08:00

baby i'm yours <3 HAHAHAH!

Meet Dee

2009-02-03T21:51:00.004+08:00

Friend since?
2002 -standard 3

How did u guys know each other?
primary school. class depan je.

Where do u guys meet for the first time?
toilet :D

Last time u saw her?
semalam lepak sharez dgn mahir, ajim and amin.

Her attitude?
OMG, kuat touching. trust me,

Famous as?
dee siput tak pun dee azriq. HAHA

Is she's taken? if yes,by who?
fr sure, by me, fagha and azriq ONLY!

izz said : i love you dee <3>

memerlukan ini teramat sangat,

2009-02-03T21:31:00.003+08:00

i need this fucking shit LV handbag ):
anyoneeee, fr my birthday present please please!

school

2009-02-03T20:51:00.003+08:00

herm today dah start sekolah and everything sama je cuma hari ni tak ramai sangat dekat dalam class. boring boring! herm aku dgn kida macam biasa gossip pasal semua orang. HAHAHA, i love you kida<3 eh eh dee, fagha and jenny pun. grr takpasal! then time coco period bosan nak mompos sebab siapa yang masuk gymrama kena practise but our leader(Aini) tak ada so ktorang which is aku and eva, HAHAHA ktorang reka step sendiri. sumpah kelakar! ahaa then go on with bio class after break. Bio seriously best gila. tapi tak tau la en kalau first test aku nnt macam mana but so far bio menarik :D weee~ haa paling bosan punya subject is physics. grr tak tau ah apa mr AK tu merapu. dia ajar sumpah macam tgh cerita bedtime story. HAHAHA, aku kida shane monty ikmal haikal mana dengar apa dia merapu. memekak dalam class kacau orang sampai mr AK panas dgn ktorang but who cares?! HAHAHA best la sial hari nih. aku & kida tade keje snap picture bawah meja bajet nak cover from mr AK. actually aku nk snap picture mr AK nk update dekat blog tapi tk sempat. mr AK malu malu -______-" wtf! HAHAHAHA :D

nahhh ambil ni muka tade, badan je!

school, sports!

2009-02-01T19:12:00.000+08:00

I dunno what u've been told,
YELLOW's aiming for the gold,
We'll give our best so cheer us on,
We wont give up untill the end .
Go YELLOW Go YELLOW Goooo YELLOW!

Hatred

2009-02-01T18:41:00.002+08:00

I hate the way you talk to me,
I hate it when you stare.
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick;
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie,
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

feels,

i dont know how to express my feeling.
i dont know how to say and sometimes im confused of myself.
i dont regret but i feel regret. i feel dont but i need him.
i misss the other one but do he cares?
he's not for me and please please understand this.
its hard to find a guy like this one but
why do i still feel of the other one?
why do i still leave on his shadow. i dont like it and i hate it.
but why would this happen to me?
mark this word he doest care bout me anymore and he
already have someone in his life and same goes to me.
but he was my first. there will be no such thing or
such way that i can delete him frm my heart.
maybe there was a technical problem . hurm?
this is faith Nur Izzati
u have to accept it no matter what.
just go on with ur lyfe and believes on urself.
i know u can do this. even how hard it is but u have to try okay.
i know im stupid and i feel stupid but i dont ask to be like this .

what i want in my life now is i want to be succeed !
i want this thing so badly and i have to achieve this.
i want to get flying colours for my SPM.
and i have to be strong and i have to work soo hard .
i've still got about 1 year and 9 months to go on.
believe this you will only sacrifices in just a little time
but once you get it you'll feel it in a longer time and
it will never ends :)

first february

2009-02-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

OMG, its FEBRUARY ! :D

helloo valentines :)

Happy Birthday Daniel :D

2009-02-01T17:36:00.009+08:00

Wohooo happy sweet sixteen babe, 31 january. we love you <3 actually ktorg nak buat surprise party for daniel tapi tak jadi sebab cake baru beli lah and tht time tgh hujan lebat gila end up semua orang datang lambat. HAHAHA bangang! but it was fun okay. semua our bestfriends ada. cool gila! tapi penat jugak la tipu si daniel ni nak suruh dia datang andalus kalau tak mmg HARAPAN la en. mamat nih tau nak pergi rooftop je. bosaaaannn. penat je plan dgn hafsah which is daniel's gf. ktorg plan sampai daniel and hafsah gadoh. grr bangang jeh. sorry tau daniel && hafsah. wee but atlast diorang okay jugak. sweet gila okay hafsah datang bawak cake and cake tu seriously sedappppp. huishh, jealous gila weh! HAPPY BIRHDAY DANIEL SYARON <3

daniel kena baling tepung. SERONOK weh!

daniel, birthday boy (:

aww so sweet, actually cake tu hafsah yg belikan. COMEL gila && cake tu seriously sedaaap gilaaa!

happy birthday to you,
happy birhday to you,
happy birthday to daniel syaron,
happy birthday to you,
WE LOVE YOU, fullstop.

daniel's sister, so sweet.

29 jan

2009-01-29T04:13:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum :D wahhh bagus betul izz nih. HAHA today ktorg tak melepak dah sebab masing masing kena sound dgn parents so guess what apa ktorg buat? haaaaaaa, STUDY GROUP! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! gila tak boleh bla wehhh. actually buat homework masing masing. grr tau tak, imran ajar aku macam mana nk buat esei SEJARAH! gila tak percaya doe. but thaaanks imran, i dah faham macam mana nak buat :D HAHA! buat homework tapi minah ni which is dee sibuk je snap picture. cohhh padehal aku pun sama en. BEST gilaaaa <3 nak photosssssss

haa time nih korg mmg kejam tak ajak ):

dee gatal tgk rommie bukak seluar haaa.

i'm a new teacher :D HAHAHA!

dee, rommie && imran

HAHA, daniel tgh semangat bercerita.

dee our new maid :D

daniel bajet rajin padehal COPY je en? HAHA

yawwww sopek doeee!

27 jan 09

2009-01-27T21:51:00.004+08:00

OMG, the best day EVER wehhhh <3 nanti aku update lagi eh? tengah penat gila, nak makan && tido kejap -______-" I LOVE YOU mr chan (: *takpasal*

haaaaa makin lama makin malas doe nak update blog! HAHAHA, bila fikir balik mcm bodoh je nak cerita semua benda apa yang aku buat hari hari. okay wtv izz. kau dah buat blog dah pun. dah nama pun blog so terpaksa la STORY MORRYYYY kan?!?!?! HAHAHAHAHAHA sorry aku mmg suka gelak secara mengejut. weeee~ okay today aku lepak castle && andalus je. haa ambil ni photos byk gila. look, sumpah malas doe nak story. if nak tau sangat pasal 27 jan nih meh sini jumpa aku, aku cerita SEMUA wehhh! HAHA!

sopek a.k.a imran && kida <3

new school

2009-01-27T03:20:00.003+08:00

here we gooooo with sri utama school, ahaa this is my new school BITCH! sumpah masa 1st day of school aku mcm orang bodoh je. dah la kena tggu kida lama gila sebab sekolah ni start at 8am so minah ni pun dtg 7.40am mcm tu. tak ke bangang aku tggu dia dari 7.10am. grr dah la first day aku boleh pulak bantai demam. ni semua gara-gara interview ngeng tuh. WTF! then lepas kida dtg, kida bwk aku pergi tmpt assembly semua and dekat situ ada la beberapa orang tegur aku. yang aku ingat orang first ckp "welcome to SSU" is Natasha Munira. and lepastu Diyana Fatin, Tiara, Allya, Aini && Fauzann.

hehhh, time tu baru aku rasa yangg diorgg semua friendly gila. HAHAHA, happy happy. ingat kan kawan aku nnt kida je en? huu~ okayyy, after that masuk class. that time aku tak plan langsung nak duduk dgn siapa semua sebab kalau boleh mmg nak duduk sebelah kida tapi kida dah duduk dgn Aini. soooo aku punn cari lah org lain. first first masuk class dah kena cari meja sebab tak cukup ): sedihhhh. ahaa lepas dapat meja, guess WHAT aku duduk dengan siapa?!?!?!?! HAH, AKU DUDUK SORANG LA WEH! && BELAKANG SEKALI pulak tu. perghh terbakar gila ah. tapi nak buat mcm mana dah aku start lambat. HAHA :D then depan aku sepatutnya Diyana & Janise. i think Janise kesian kot tengok aku duduk belakang sorang sorang so dia move to another side. then Diyana ask me to seat with her. ahaa HAPPY HAPPY dapat duduk dengan someone (: OMG sumpah aku suka gila bau Diyana. wangi nak mampos! ntah berapa juta la harga perfume dia sampai wangi sangat. geram gila wehh rasa macam nak makan je. HAHAHA *tak pasal*

after break i think, ahaa ms Padma bagi sports house dekat all new student so that time aku dapat Red House. suka jugak la sebab Red kan? ala ala Pink gituuu. okay, time tu dah la panas terik and bole pulak mrs singh suruh ktorang "beratur" mcm budak budak like PANJAG GILA sbb ramai sangat new student. so ktorg pun Q la panjang panjang tu. aku & kida membebel && cuci mata tgk budak kindergarden. wao, comel gila la weh. after Q guess wht? boleh la pulak mrs singh pergi tukar kan aku dekat Yellow House! wtf! i hate yellow. grr nak tak nak terima jela. nasib baik Aini pun in yellow house so OKAY la dari tade kawan right? hee so, tu jela pasal my first day of school. HAHAHA, lupa nak bgtau. RAMAI gila HOT GUYS :D best best!

kawan kawan seperjuangan!

2009-01-27T03:10:00.002+08:00

memory of 2006-2008

2009-01-27T02:26:00.005+08:00

omg, its 2.26am already and and im soooo damn sleepy. okay aku sekarang tengah rasa mcm mcm. mcm mcm tu macaaaammmmmm nak menangis, menjerit, memekak and semua lahh. haihh, seriously everythng changed nw. and yeah i had changed too dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki termasuk lah rohani dan jasmani aku. grr i thought i cant get over you but nw trust me weh, aku dah LUPA semua pasal kau. u're just my history life tht i wont forget about it. i'm happy now so pls if you baca this blog, plss sangat jangan kacau hidup i dah. GET IT? babe, u knw who u're. sorry and thanks fr everything (: bye youuuu!

sedihhhhh ):

2009-01-26T22:16:00.003+08:00

10.21pm 26 jan 09,

people guess wht? disebabkan aku kebosanan tade crdt so aku pun fade up tgk phone && penat tgk laptop so turun bawah MAKAN (: 10mins after that aku on TV and cari movie yg best best soooooo akuuu punnnn jumpaaa laaaa cerita nihh which is 'TITANIC' omg omg omg! dah nak dekat 10 kali kot aku tgk movie tu. and selama aku tgk, tak pernah sekali pun AKU TAK NANGIS :D wahahahaha! lawak en? haaa gelak lah gelakkkk. sedih la sial. "you jump i jump" wtffffffff.

kanak kanak ribena

2009-01-26T17:00:00.002+08:00

from left: annissa layla, me, dee, farrah diyana and adibah
ohh my godd, picture ni time semua org tgh noob shit! HAHAHA :D
Form 1, 2006
school's trip to Putrajaya

Meet My Mum && My Sister

2009-01-26T16:33:00.006+08:00

from left : my mum, normah. my sister, aainaa
p/s: i really need both of them right nw ):
abah && along bolehh blaa. HAHAHA

PISCES HOROSCOPE 2008

2009-01-26T16:33:00.002+08:00

Written by Love stories

PISCES HOROSCOPE 2008:
You can reach new levels of fulfillment this year when you participate as part of a team, because optimistic Jupiter, your co-ruling planet, is in your 11th House of Groups. Opportunities to advance professionally depend on the support of colleagues and your ability to network professionally. You're ready for more responsibility and higher achievement, but ultimately your success depends on the quality of relationships you create with others. Serious Saturn is in your 7th House of Partnerships now, making your closest alliances the most challenging area of your life. Your tender heart hates to reject or criticize people, yet it's vital to associate yourself with those who are dedicated, competent and willing to work as hard as you do. Carrying the load of a less-than-capable partner can wear you down in your personal life or hold you back in your career. Fortunately, Jupiter and Saturn form three harmonious trines this year that help you discover a balance between being compassionate and setting limits. These giant planets align on January 21, September 8 and November 21 in the practical earth signs of Capricorn and Virgo to connect your lofty ambitions for tomorrow with the reality of today. Establishing well-defined goals and creating a strategy to achieve them is well within your reach.

Your other key planet is Neptune, and this year it will underscore your innate spiritual inclination as it continues the long journey through your 12th House of Soul Consciousness that began in 1999. Two eclipses in the 12th House, though, turn this into a critical year of letting go of old metaphysical concepts and religious beliefs, preparing you for new dimensions of awareness. The Solar Eclipse on February 6 is conjunct diffusive Neptune, carrying waves of feeling that are overwhelming even to you. Yet if you can just let go and ride them with faith, they will bring you to a place of deep wisdom and inspiration. The Lunar Eclipse on August 16 is as powerful as an inner tsunami that pulls you far from familiar territory. You could easily feel lost and anxious to return your feet to solid ground. But when you are willing to release the past and fully embrace the present, old wounds and doubts are washed away and the world becomes fresh and new again.

Visionary Neptune can supply another magical moment when it conjuncts the karmic North Node of the Moon on May 2, with rippling effects throughout the year. This rare meeting is one more reminder of the spiritual freedom that can be yours now. You may attract a teacher or companion who touches your soul and helps you overcome any sense of separation you have with others and the world around you. If you're already advanced on a path of personal awakening, you might become a source of inspiration for those seeking enlightenment. Take time out from your worldly ambitions and responsibilities to fill yourself with the spirit that can be found in nature, music, yoga or meditation. The benefits may not appear on your résumé or bank statement, but they are precious nonetheless

2009-01-26T15:19:00.001+08:00

i miss him, i do ):

26 jan,

2009-01-26T13:34:00.004+08:00

yeahhh todayyy aku bangun mcm lambat sikit sebab selalunya pukul 10 dah terpacak dekat depan dapur && "ma, wht fr breakfast?" and pagi tadi ma yang dtg kejut aku semua then siap bagitau dia dah belikan nasi lemak and and air dia dah buatkan. i was soooooo excited sbb dah lama tak makan nasi lemak and straight bagun, mandi MAKANNNN :D weeeee~ okay time tgh makan nih, baru je nak masuk mulut tiba tiba along (which is abang aku) yg sial tu boleh bantai cari pasal dgn aku la pulak en. "weh izzati, nasi lemak tu mak beli utk aku lah" and dlm hati aku sumpah nak terajang dia. "kau dah tiba tiba balik lepastu ada hati cakap nasi lemak ni kau punya! nak, beli ah sendiri" and bla bla blaa ktorg gaduh like 10 mins tiba tiba ma turun MARAH AKU?!?!?! tak sial la pulak en. pehal la masalah abg aku tu. setiap kali balik rumah je ada je benda nak bagi aku naik angin. ATLAST, aku mengalah and i said "nahhhhh ambil lah nasi lemak kau!" aku basuh tangan semua then lari masuk bilik. ecehhh ecehhh merajuk la konon. thennn ma dtg pujuk aku semua lepastu ma buatkan MAGGIE. HAHA, mcm siot je maggie tapi its okay i dont mind. i love my mum. apa je dia masak aku makan (: WAO, anak misali lahhh kononNYA!

satakat tu jelahh then naik atas ONLINEEEEEE :D ma suruh aku buat hw and hell yeah, mmg HARAPAN la kan aku nak buat hw tu. but i'll tryyyyyyyy. HAHAHAHA! rinduuuu sekolahhh la siaaaaal, rindu lepak andalus after school semua. yang paling best pasal sekolahhh, boleh aku cuci mata pagi pagi tgk TWINS :D right tiara? HAHA, bodoh bodoh je. okayyyy thats it. tataaaaaa~

Guys :D

2009-01-26T13:14:00.001+08:00

1.When she stares at your mouth,
Kiss her.

2.When she pushes you or hit you like a dumb ass cause she thinks she's stronger than you,
Grab her and dont let go.

3.When she starts cursing at you, tryin to act all tough,
Kiss her and tell her you love her.

4.When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong.

5.When she ignores you
Give her your attention.

6.When she pulls away
Pull her back.

7.When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful.

8.When you see her start crying
Just hold her and dont say a word.

9.When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

10.When she's scared
Protect her.

11.When she steals your favorite hat
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

12.When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh.

13.When she doesn't answer for a long time
Reassure her that everything is okay.

14.When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up.

15.When she says that she likes you
SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN YOU COULD UNDERSTAND!!!

16.When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers.

17.When she bumps into you
Bump into her back and make her laugh.

18.When she tells you a secret
Keep it safe and untold.

19.When she looks at you in your eyes
Don't look away until she does.

20.When she says it's over
She still wants you to be hers.

21.When she reposts this bulletin
She wants you to read it.

22.When she's mad
Hug her tight and don't let go.

23.When she says she's ok
Don't believe it, talk with her because 10 years later she'll remember you.

24.Call her at 12:00am on her birthday
To tell her you love her.

25.Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

26.Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid.

27.Give her the world.

28.Let her wear your clothes.

29.When she's bored and sad
Hang out with her.

30.Let her know she's important.

Good girls, bad girls:

2009-01-26T02:00:00.001+08:00

Good girls say "thanks for a wonderful dinner"...
Bad girls say, "what's for breakfast?"
Good girls never go after another girl's man...
Bad girls go after him AND his brother.
Good girls wear white cotton panties...
Bad girls don't wear any.
Good girls wax their floors...
Bad girls wax their bikini lines.
Good girls loosen a few buttons when it's hot...
Bad girls make it hot by loosening a few buttons.
Good girls make chicken for dinner...
Bad girls make reservations.
Good girls blush during bedrooms scenes in movies...
Bad girls know they could do better.
Good girls never consider sleeping with the boss...
Bad girls never do either, unless he's very, very rich.
Good girls believe you're not fully dressed without a strand of pearls...
Bad girls believe that you are fully dressed with JUST a strand of pearls.
Good girls love Italian food...
Bad girls love Italian waiters.

late dinner

2009-01-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

okay guess wht skrg dh 1.33am right? anddd im having my late late late dinner. siapa nak maggie? mari sini mari sini. wtf :D HAHA, thanks Mahir!

Differences Between Men And Women:

2009-01-26T01:31:00.001+08:00

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

my bad ):

2009-01-26T01:08:00.001+08:00

Why am I starting this blog? well, I am not sure yet. maybe to confess all my sins? free myself from the shame? perhaps to have people tell me what a horrible, terrible person I am?

2009-01-26T00:56:00.000+08:00

It’s been the busiest couple of weeks ever, so this chinese new year better live up to my expectations! grr -______-"

HOHO, happy chinese new year

2009-01-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

12.38 am
bosan bosan bosan. okay mercun tu tade kuat lagi ke nak bunyi. aku dh tutup telinga dgn bantal pun still dengar jugak. relax sudah, orang lain pun celebrate chinese new year && TAK PERLU kot nk main mercun mcm sial kuat gila. tak pasal je nnt ada org join ISRAEL yang bom bom GAZA tuh. eh fuck ah, bunyi tu sumpah annoying doe TAK TIPU. makin lama makin kuat aku bagi bom atom tau lah. eh hello, ingat MALAYSIA BAPAK KAU PUNYA?!?!?!
haihhh kalau ye pun dunia dah maju sampai nak buat mercun kuat kuat and bunyi mcm ni haa "siuuwwwwwwwww pommmmm pommm pommm" dah macam buang tabiat doe. HAHAHAHA, apa aku merapu nih. whatever it is, Happy Chinese New Year (:

dee,
sumpah geram dgn kauu. aku call bukan nak angkat. kalau angkat pun fr sure kau tido. wehh wehh jom jog esok *muka menipu*

grrr
perut aku dari pukul 11pm tadi dah berbunyi. apa la masalah. nak kata tak bagi makan, aku dah sumbat mcm mcm tadi. siot ah, nak makan tapi takut nak turun bawah. grrr PERLU KE HIDUP MCM NIH? touching pulak en. *takpasal*

i miss school <3

2009-01-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

kida, tiara, alya, natasha and me

perghhh rindu la sial time nihhh -______-"

2009-01-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

nak makan nak makan nak makan!

survey part 1

2009-01-25T22:33:00.002+08:00

Are you afraid of losing the person you like right now?
veryy

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
yeah

Does anyone hate your ex?
ALOTS

Is anything bothering you?
no

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
manyy <33

Are you missing anyone?
yeaah i miss ************

Are you satisfied with how things are going?
not really

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
cant recall

What's your ex doing?
i dont even care

Have you ever tried your hardest, then got disappointed later on?
too many times.

Are you happier now? Or four months ago?
four months ago

Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them?
yeahh.

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
no

How do you feel about that?
dont really care.

Have you made any new regrets this year?
yeahhh

Would you be shocked if your last ex said they hated you?
he probably do.

Have you ever been arrested?
not yet.

Does anyone know your myspace password?
yeahh fagha && kida.

Do you know a secret about one of your friends that would embarrass them?
haaa yeaah ! no worries. ill keep it safely :D

Do you do your own laundry?
never.

Last thing you bought for someone else?
exercise book fr shahmi. BODOH!

Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
depends if its really bad.

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
mmm nope.

Think of the person you told "I love you" last, did you mean it?
of course i meant it

Do you like to read?
depends.

What's the last movie you saw at home?
High School Musical

How do you feel about chocolate covered strawberries?
awww im so fuckingg love it

Who are all of the texts in your inbox from?
bestfrnds andd him's

Are any of your friends taller than you?
yeaahh. im not that tall

Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
stupid guy, naqeeb.

Where were you on July 4th, 2008?
macam sial, mmg INGAT sebenarnya

Do you blow dry your hair?
once a week.

Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings?
always and always

Do you like to cuddle?
yehh ,

Does the thought of marriage scare you?
not really

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
yeah sbb bunyi mercun mcm sial kuat.

Do you think you're wasting your time on the person you like?
i dont think so

When was your default picture taken?
yesterday

Where was it taken?
my dad's car

What is more important happiness or trust?
happiness

Do you even KNOW how to do the laundry?
hell yeah !

When's the last time you had a headache?
last friday

Do you always care what you look like?
depends.

Are you in a fight with anyone right now?
yeah. and im really really sorry ):

Latest you stayed up in the past two weeks?
3.30 am

What were you doing?
online && eating

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
i do off my phone

Have any memories that you'd like to forget?
id love to

Are you afraid of falling in love?
i dont think so

How's your heart lately?
very pain

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
yeahh.

Do you like tattoos and piercings?
nooo

Do you want to have kids?
yeahh.

If so, what would you name them?
ahaaaa secret :D sebab merapu sangat

Do you like to wear sweatpants?
sometimes.

Are you playing hard to get right now?
maybe

Do you miss your past?
most of the time.

When did you last hold hands with someone?
last week

When was the last time you cleaned your room?
just nw

What are you excited about?
currently nothing.

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
yellow. bahahaha

How is your hair?
straight i think

Have you ever lived with your girlfriend / boyfriend?
HAHA no

Would you ever take someone back after they' ve cheated?
probably.

What do you have tattooed on you?
nothing

When is the last time you saw fireworks?
merdeka last two years

Are you taller than your mom?
yeahhh :D

Did you dress up on Halloween?
nopee

Do you wear makeup?
depends on my mood

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
errr yeaahh. from my mom !

Do you like to wear jeans or a skirt?
jeans would be better

Do you prefer light or dark haired girls / guys?
mm both.

nak sambung upload photos :D

2009-01-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

mari lah mencuci mata lihat kenangan lama. WTF! HAHAHA!

2009-01-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

oh okay guess what? tadi ada someone call aku which is that guy tu laaa penyebab segala masalah aku, masalah negara && masalah DUNIA! fuck la weh. and knw wht, he ask me to go out with him this tuesday. MEMAMG TAK LA kan! kau dgn ex gf kau boleh pergi MATI. SIAL JAHANAM PUKIMAK KAU AH! kau dah rosakkan semua benda dalam hidup aku and plsss jgn cari aku balik. i hate you, yessss i do!

i miss them ):

2009-01-25T21:43:00.003+08:00

2009-01-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

after 3 week sekolah, and yeahhh aku update juga blog ni, ATLAST! HAHAHA, people yang baru follow this blog, sorry la eh? actually dh banyak aku delete all the post yg lama lama punya. just need some space to start a new life (:

hari ni 25 jan 09

nothing much, just bangun tidur then breakfast mandi online lepastu yang bestnya pergi wedding dekat PUTRA HOTEL! oh goddd, banyak gila hot guys weh. tak tipuuu -_____-" mak kata, hahh CUCI MATA BIAR BERSIH BERSIH! muahahaha :D makanan mcm siot tak sedap. tapi dah biasa sbb kenduri dekat tmpt grand mcm tu makanan mmg tak sedap. after wedding pergi rumah mak long dekat ampang which is dekat gila babi dengan rumah si cik farah hanan nih. mak long aku tu kalau bercerita mmg tak ingat dunia la en KUAT! so aku mcm layaaannnnn jela apa dia merapu. sumpah mak long ROCK doe. ada ke dia suruh aku colour rambut colour KUNING! WTF! mmg tak la kan. HAHAHAHA :D sembang punya sembang abah dah bising ajak balik sebab nak pergi tgk rumah apa ntah so follow je la. thennn dalam kereta BOSAN BOSAN taknak cerita. HAHAHA! then boleh pulak berangan nak pakai apa fr prom night laa hape laa. bodoh bodoh je. nothing interesting punnnnn.

22 Feb 09
OH FUCK, i miss my sister ALOT! kakak i lappppp youuuu <3

luahan perasan yang tak seberapa

2009-01-25T21:11:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha sumpah mcm cibai je mamat tu. DULU time scandal bukan main lagi syg aku, trust aku semua, haaa lagi pentingggg! BAGI AKU HOPE 100% wehhh. and nw kau 'muncul' balik. oh god, apa motif doe? aku dah ada org lain then baru nak cari aku balik 'konon' nya la. HAHAHAHA! penat la weh, dulu aku tunggu kau mcm org gila. bila aku baru buat hal SIKIT, kau terus DUMB aku LIKE HELL! yeahhhh, what goes around comes around right? fine, i'm not in love with you dah tapi sakit hati la weh tgk muka kau. ishhh, plsss la elok elok aku dh GET OVER kau then tiba tiba kau dtg balik mcm tu je en? grrr im so fucking stupid -______-"

new year (:

2009-01-01T15:12:00.001+08:00

ok look people, today is a new year and i wish i could change everything. like my sister said, forget the past and keep looking forward. PMR is OVER and OVER and OVER!

penat,

aku penat menangis, tension, semua lah just sebab result mcm cibai. okay fine izz. dah la tu lupakan je. setiap kali on myspace mesti orang akan tanya result aku semua. WTF la! aku pun dgn baik hati bagitau semua. grr!

loves,

setakat ni tade lagi fr a TRUE TRUE LOVE :D